"I try to just be there to hear her out, to let her talk, to make sure that she knows that I love her, to make sure that she knows that she matters to everyone."
Danielle's symptoms when she's going through depression are all over the place: not sleeping properly, sleeping way, way, way too much, not sleeping enough, binge eating, not eating at all, crying—massive amounts of crying, anger. She gets really angry sometimes, and that's probably the hardest thing out of all it, when she gets overworked, and she gets overwhelmed and that's really—it's not anger, it's overwhelmed. She gets super overwhelmed sometimes and she just doesn't know how to cope and it's just—it's there, it's part of it.
There are times where she talks about not wanting to be here anymore. There are times where she talks about just wanting to end it and that's scary. And on days like that I try to just be there, you know, to hear her out, to let her talk, to make sure that she knows that I love her, to make sure that she knows that she matters to everyone. Usually it doesn't last very long. She'll go through snaps where she's really upset and she's really depressed and the "I just don't want to be here, I just want to end it, I just don't want to deal with this anymore, I can't, I don't want to." And she'll go through it for a day or two where she's like that. I sit, and I listen to her, and I talk to her, and I just let her know that no matter what, no matter what she's going through, no matter how angry she is, no matter how hurt she is, no matter what, I'm always there and I'll always love her. She's got a good support team behind her, she's got a lot of people who really care about her and don't know what they would do without her.
If you or someone you know are having thoughts of suicide, reach out to a healthcare provider immediately. The National Suicide Prevention Lifeline is available 24/7 at 1-800-273-8255.
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