"While everybody I talk to is not going to always understand what I'm feeling, what I'm trying to say, what I'm going through, it makes you feel less alone and conversations not only help you, but they help the people around you understand."
There's so many different ways to seek out support when you're depressed, and if there's someone that's in your circle that you feel comfortable opening up to, I think it's very important to isolate them and say, "Hey, I don't know how to say this to you, but this is how I'm feeling. I don't know what to do." And they might not know what to do either, but it's important to tell someone, always, how you're feeling, especially if you are getting to that point of wanting to self-injure or suicide.
It's really scary to admit that you're feeling a particular way, especially to yourself. I mean I've heard myself say so many times, like, "I don't want to be here, I don't want to live anymore," and I'm like, "Wait, who am I?" You take a step back. And then, you have to process that yourself and then, telling somebody else, it's petrifying because you don't know how they're going to react, you don't know how you're going to feel. Are you going to feel better? Are you going to feel worse? But by talking, you're allowing things to not have the same power over you and you can find help.
Talking is the one thing that I rely the most on when I'm depressed. I feel like the second that I speak certain words they stop having power over me because I'm acknowledging them. And once I acknowledge them, I learn how to fight them. While everybody I talk to is not going to always understand what I'm feeling, what I'm trying to say, what I'm going through, it makes you feel less alone and conversations not only help you, but they help the people around you understand.
And if you might not know how to cope with something and you have a conversation with a friend, they might have gone through it and they might have very useful experiences to share with you. Conversation is never bad and the more you talk, the more you're helping yourself, and talking can save lives.
If you or someone you know are having thoughts of suicide, reach out to a healthcare provider immediately. The National Suicide Prevention Lifeline is available 24/7 at 1-800-273-8255.
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